About two months ago I bought a dress for a wedding.
I purchased it a full size smaller than what I was in then. A size that I haven't even SEEN since High School. Crazy? Probably, but hey - new year, new adventures, right?
And when I informed Mr. Trainer about said goal he mumbled something about how crazy girls were but then proceeded to help me reach it.
I tried on the dress when I first got it and it resembled something akin to a busted can of biscuits so I hung it at the back of the closet and just continued to do my thing. On good days I didn't even think about it. On the bad days I could feel it mocking me! Us women are a quandary, I know.
So today, after a "Last Chance Workout" at the gym this morning it was GO TIME. I stalled for as long as possible thinking that I needed to give my attitude as much as a boost as possible. Once the hair was done, makeup applied and I really couldn't stall any more I put the dress on....added the heels....and proceeded to the guest room that has the full length mirror.
Then I turned to see what was what...........happy tears were had along with a little jig - I had finally reached this tiny milestone of many on my journey.
More importantly though, before I looked in the mirror I took a second to focus on how I "feel" in the dress first. I didn't have to huff and puff and stretch fabric awkwardly to put it on, I could BREATHE (and that's a big one for chicks people), it was hugging all the right curves, and I actually felt comfortable.
This game is a lot of sweat in the gym.....but it's a heck of a lot more work mentally. FOR. SURE.
Because of that, and for one of the first times in a long time, I was able to go and enjoy the event without avoiding pictures or people. I could laugh and dance and toss my nephew around without worrying what I was looking like.
And isn't being comfortable in our own skin all we really want? Am I 100% there yet? Of course not....but I'm making steps toward it every day.
And come on, it's a killer dress yo!
2 comments:
Looking good!
You look fabulous! I wish I had your strength as I sit here feeling fat and sipping wine. Keep doing good what you are doing and moving forward. All of your hard work is very visible and admirable.
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